Faustus' Roses.........

Faustus!

Being born

From thy damned soul.....

Your immortal children

Plays with the Energy

Like artificial alliterations

In a blank verse,

They grow Blue Roses

All over the earth.

 Like a promise

Of Satan,

Genes 

Temporarily hath changed the hue.

Eve just ate

A single forbidden fruit.

But we

Under the pact with the Devil

Grow,

Acres and acres of

Blue Roses......

The forbidden flowers

In Eden.

Faustus!

Would thy children

Be able

To secure their souls

At the end of Twenty years of perfect wisdom?

I wonder.......

High above!

I like the sky,

For its colours…..

For the mesmerizing beauty it holds….

Wonders that we can never touch.

I am thankful for the sky,

For holding the sun, moon and stars;

Just imagine,

If the Sky decides to throw away the rainbow

How dull a life could become!

I like the way sky changes

Because it brings a surprise every time.

And more than everything,

I love the feeling I get

When I look up and see

A shelter above my life.

The Fallen Angel......

I am a fallen angel.

Self denied salvation.

Breathing chaos.

My eternity

Is burning in

A beautiful blue flame.

It is not for light

But for darkness

That I fell.

When I could not find you;

In light, in order.....

Missing my way to heaven,

With broken wings.

I seek no Azazel but you,

Too wounded to be a Satanist.

Where ever you are....

In light or darkness.

With He or the Fallen One,

It does not matter to me,

Because.....

I am willing

To fall again and again

Not for illumination

But for you;

My Light,

My Order.

Sin is but a shadow

That i cannot see in darkness

When i am with you.

To The First Love!

I still remember……

The smiles that we shared

The words we spluttered

Petty but pure was our affections.

I still remember,

The way you walked beside me,

As if you have won the whole world.

The way you locked your eyes in mine

And muttered that you are my lover…..

I still remember

How you treated me;

As if I am a princess,

you took my hand and kissed it

Every morning when we meet each other…..

I still remember,

I still remember, yes I do remember,

That you loved sleeping into rainy days

With little bit of darkness.

Like a fool I left you

Regression is not enough a word,

I left, not knowing that I held a piece of you

Hidden deep In my soul.

Now it’s too late, I know

I can’t turn back time but should go on…..

But until my memories perish,

I will always remember……..

Yes, I will always remember!

The Stranger..

I didn't know you,
I wondered who you were........
I just thought,
You might be that Stranger.
I always wondered....
Why my heart fluttered,
Why i thought i knew you,
Why my eyes wanted to see you,
Why my soul
Thought that you would be my Stranger.
Things that i never believed...like "If the eyes could talk"
For half a second....i thought,
I could find you in 'real' world.
I know i was wrong,
To think that I could be happy and content
Even for one fraction of a second.
Then it hit me,
Like it has never done before.
I sat and listened to the sound
The sound of one tiny crack that pained my heart.
I wish i didn't wanna know you.
I wish i had let you be who you were; a stranger.
If i did.....
You would have always been
My Stranger.

A Question.

Where flowers should be,

Where toys should be,

Lies a metallic murderer.

Where smiles should beam,

Where laughter should echo,

Where love should be visible,

Haunts,

Death,uncertainty, helplessness

Misery, pain and hopelessness.

What are we fighting for?

For a  barren land?

For an invisible border?

For our Pride or dignity?

For Future?

Whose land?

Whose border?

Whose dignity, pride and future?

Theirs?

No!

Ours.

Why should they then

Carry our sins upon their shoulders?

What do they know of the difference

Between these evil words?

Nation state and national integrity?

democracy and terrorism?

Does any make sense to them?

Children they are.

Children they should remain.

Like an earth without trees

A heaven without cherubim,

There’s no worth

In a land without a child.

My Wish

 

When I see you,

It shatters my heart.

And my soul shrieks with pain.

I wish I could cross seven seas

To reach you and hold you in my arms

And say that I am here, right now. 

I wish I had an invisibility cloak

To cover you from death; the leveler.

I wish I could scream out loud

And point you to this whole world

And ask them ‘Does this worth what you are fighting for?’

I wish I could

Cut my flesh and roast it

with my own agony and others’ guilt

To feed you.

I will cry for days and days,

Thus my tears would freshen up your lips.

I will give my life,

No!

I will trade my soul with the devil,

If possible,

To make it up to you.

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After thoughts......

I just watched a movie. It’s called ‘Sanctum’. It’s about a young boy around eighteen to twenty years old. His father is a diver. He dives in caves that are flooded and hidden under water. He is in an expedition. This boy does not like his father’s obsession over cave-diving. The father, with a fellow diver makes a big discovery; an under -water cave tunnel which leads to the ocean. But, an accident happens and the fellow diver dies. He boy blames his father for her death, accusing that he left the person to die. Then, due to a heavy rain and a cyclone, the caves they were diving, start to get flooded. Only six were left. While they were climbing up, through the cave, a flood of water comes and push them back into the tunnel. One fellow man disappears in the gush of water. When the other five; father, the boy whose name is Josh,  another fellow diver, another man and his girl friend. They find the man who disappeared a while ago who is fatally injured. The father says that he has to end the man’s suffering and hold the man under water until his last breath mixes  into the flood water. Josh thinks his father is a monster with no feelings. Then, the fellow cave diver, finds himself to be bleeding while coughing, which means he only slows the others down. He voluntarily leave the rest of the group and hide and wait till water rises above his nose. Father forces them to move on no matter what happens. The woman, who has no experience in diving or climbing soon meets her death in another unfortunate accident. The caves are filling with water and oxygen tanks are also getting empty in each dive they make to transfer from one cave to the other. The man, steal the final re-breather and escape while Joshua and his father are left in the caves. But they find another way. While they are climbing, the boy and the father gets closer to each other. Joshua sees the real father hidden inside this apparent cold man. At the end, the man who stole from them mortally injures the father, saying that he(father) left his girl friend to die. The man finally goes on a suicidal escape attempt and die. Father cannot move since his spinal cord is broken in the fight. Father request Josh to help him. He asks his son to hold him under water until he dies. The son, after finding who his father really is, has to help his own father dies in his arm. Finally, Josh escapes.

This made me think a lot. I Think of how uncertain our lives are. How small an incident does it take to put ourselves in a mortal danger? How mighty is the nature and how frail we are? How nature can overpower every possible human technology! In this journey of life, how many people fall back? How many people quite? How many people stay behind for the greater good? How many people go insane without being able to handle situations? And all the more….how irresponsible are we, not to try and understand the people that we love? Why do we always postpone showing a bit of love? Why don’t we try and read the other person next to us? Why do we keep back what we should be saying to them? If we don’t do it today at all cost…we might not have a tomorrow. There won’t be that person sitting next to you tomorrow.  If you don’t do what you have to do today…..you might be forced to  leave a newly understood dead daddy or mommy down in that cave. You might lose you sibling, lover or a friend back in that cave………Yet, even if he lost his dad, Josh  went on and up to date he lives, somewhere in the world because that is what his father wanted him to do. How many of us, posses such courage? How many of us would have gone on? Think……that’s what we should do. That’s  what I do.

What i should and should not do!

If I meet a vampire, I should not ask him how to become immortal.(cuz I have already read about it!) I should not beg him not to kill me. I should not look at his sharp front teeth and be horrified. I should not scream my head off or try to run. I should not try my karate with him and of course no use of talking about human rights to him too! I definitely should not be so vain to believe that my scent should arouse some deep humane feeling from his heart(if, of course he has one!) which would make him realize that he has fallen in love with me!(That happens in fiction!) I should not definitely  be curious of his name and of his age. If he tries to frighten me, I think I should pretend that I am about to faint! Even though I really want to know what happens to vampires who drink blood from an AIDS patient, I won’t be bold enough to ask it from him.(Hopefully he can read my mind and answer!) I definitely should not tell him that he looks pathetic, trying to suck human blood and surely not give him any tips as  ‘how to become a vegetarian vampire.’(or else he might try to attack my pet cat!) I also should not look at his blood-red eyes and suggests him to wear lenses. I should not ask whether he likes garlic source. Shouldn’t I be asking him whether he can turn into a bat? I think I should not. So what do you expect me to do? Ask him to sit for supper with me? (I call that irony of  fate!) Then, what should I do???? Well…..I think it’s wise, just to keep my mouth shut and die!

A big thankx!

I wanna say

'A big thank you'

For being there for me

when i needed you.

When things went crazily wrong,

When i decided to give up,

When i messed up (of which i was incredibly good at)

And when i thought,

I have failed.

You were like,

Mad-Eye Moody!

Always telling me,

To have 'constant vigilance'!

Allowing me to dance around,

Helping me to survive my exams,(at the eleventh hour!)

It was like,

'Having a friend' (Well..that makes two fiends!)

And

This is a thank you....

Which goes out....

To none other than,

Myself!

Never sound so sensible in my life!

If I ever get magical powers……………I would turn the ‘reality’ into ‘fantasy’. Just imagine how it would be! When all those fairy tales come true! Wizards and witches swarming around. Different spells and potions! Mesmerizing fairies and mermaids….Adventures, quests. Newborn vampires, angry werewolves, smart Elves, crude goblins and many more creatures roaming on earth! That would be fantastic. But…. When I turn ‘fantasy’ into ‘reality’, I would be having magical powers in the ‘real’ world. So, when ‘reality’ is shifted into ‘fantasy’ my powers would also shift. In other words…I will lose my magical powers in the world where fantasy has turned into reality. Why should I be so powerless in this new world? Then, shouldn’t I be not doing what I want to do if I ever get magical powers? And IF I do get magical powers….doesn’t that mean what we call ‘fantasy’ is no longer a ‘fantasy’ but a ‘reality’? If so…do I have to shift ‘fantasy’ and ‘reality’? wouldn’t it be correct to say that it would be ‘me’ and my ‘perception of the world’ that may shift? Because, I refer to things that I have not seen, as ‘fantasy’, but just because I have not seen something or someone, does not mean that they  specifically have to be existing only in a fantasy. What is a ‘fantasy’ to me could be a ‘reality’ to someone else. There could be people who have seen  these and experienced this ‘fantasy’. Then how should I define ‘fantasy’ and ‘reality’, since both these concepts are very subjective? What is my ‘reality’ and my ‘fantasy’? What is your ‘reality’ and your ‘fantasy’? Isn’t in only a difference between what we all believe? What we believe to be ‘real’ and ‘not so real’?

I wanna be.....

Well....I really don't know!

Who i wanna be.......

A witch?

A vampire?

A fairy? (You should be kidding me!!)

Or may be
A dragon!(I already have rough skin and can breath fire when i get mad!)

Who knows.......

 What can i possibly be?

Am a human.

Just a typical human.

May be i should try and be better!

What do you say?

A better human being!

That i can be!